No tomatoes yet.

My tomatoes are not doing to good, they have some blooms on the top. But no tomatoes. They look sick, not sure what is wrong unless it is my kitties messing with them. I got a few squash off my vines, they seem to be doing ok. I’ll get a picture of my tomato plants so you can see what they look like.

Even though it’s been 2 years

Since my baby died, I still get, I guess panic attacks. I feel like I can’t breath. I start thinking about him and that’s when it hits me. I know what is going on and I stop thinking about him and think of something else. After the attack goes away, I feel strange, when I get that feeling I go visit his grave and I feel a little better. I guess to I need to see my grand baby, she’s makes me feel better to. But she is in the stage of crying when I get ready to leave. She wants to go with me.

Trying my hand at tomato growing from seeds

I am tried of getting tomatoes and them not tasting like a tomato. So this year I am starting tomatoes from seeds. They have come up and now I am wondering if I should set them outside to harden. I don’t mean to plant them just set them in the shade and bring them in at night. Here is pictures of them.

These are the cherry tomatoes. And the one below are Rutgers. My Mom said they are the ones that her Mom use to plant.

So should I set them out or not, and what is a good day time temp for them? Today and tomorrow it is going to be in the 80’s I think Friday will be in the high 60’s then after that 70’s.

Sad news

One of my husbands cousin died this week, he was 46. He died from the same thing Casey died. They said he was at work and his feet got numb. Same as Casey. Casey said he could not feel his legs.
This cousin was my husband’s, Mother’s brothers son. This one had a brother to die when he was in his 20’s from the aneurysm to his kidneys.

Will be 2 years in Feb.

I can’t believe it will be 2 years in Feb since my baby died. 

It doesn’t seem that long. It seems like only a few months ago.

His little beagle is still with me. And he is a mess.

Christie called me today before I got up, she left a message that scared me. She said when I get this message, she really, really, really needed me to call her. And that is all she said. When I called her, all it was she needed a baby sitter. Mikayla’s Dad had gone back to work and she did not have any one to keep Mikayla, by the time I called her she had found someone. I went to see her at work and told her not to leave me any more messages like that. She needs to tell me why she needs me to call her.