Amazing

How you get use to something. I still look at Sparkles cage expecting to see her in it. I can't seem to get use to her being gone. I have even come close to going out there to feed her.

I got a tick off me Saturday. It had been there a couple of days I think. And now it is itching me. When it starts itching I put alcohol on it. That's the first tick I have found on me in a long time. And the first one that has ever bitten me.

My daughter said my grand baby weights 17 and something pounds. And she is sitting up now. She is a little over 7 months. I have to watch her today while my daughter works. It will just be a few hours. The first time I watched her while my daughter worked I did not feed her. She had already eaten before she came that day. She is getting so big, use to she would eat ever 2 to 3 hours. It's strange now she is going longer between feedings.
I guess I had better head to bed and get some sleep so I can watch her.

My dog died

The dog I could not find a good picture of is the one that died. The last pictures I have of her is in 2007. She wasn't much for taking her picture. She would always bark when we tried to take her picture. She died in her sleep. She was in her dog house and looked like she was sleeping. I think she was broken hearted and lonely. I tried to keep her company sometimes. But I was not Casey. Casey was always in the back yard with her. And I think I noticed her howling about this time last year. She ate the day before she died. And the next day when I went to feed her she would not eat. My husband went out the next morning to check on her and he found her dead. She had been howling off and on the past year toward evening. I would go and check on her when she howled or I would open the window and talk to her, but I guess it wasn't enough. She loved children. One afternoon when I went to feed her, the little boy across the road went with me. She perked up when she saw him. He use to play with Casey, so she knew him.
She had the prettiest blue eyes. She was Austrian Shepard and Lab mix. I am just 5 feet tall and when she stood up that's how tall she was. I'll miss her.

Easter is almost here

I found another picture of Casey hunting Easter Eggs.

I have pictures all over the place. I need to get better organized.

I went today to see the counselor. Not much was done, he wants me to have a evaluation done, to see what I am able to do in a job. She called a little while ago, I have a appointment on the 14th of this month. It will take about 2 hours she said.

I talked to my husband yesterday, not sure where he is. He's doing ok so far on the truck.

I have a question

What could be wrong with me? I don't know how to explain. But I am scared to meet new people now. I could get a job in the food service I think, like running a register. But for some reason I am scared to face a customer.

Before Casey died it did not bother me, I could do it. I was a hairstylist for about 16 years, but I have been away from that work about 5 years. I had went to the shop where I use to work to get my hair cut, one of the stylist there said they were going to need help. I had been thinking about going back to that, but I also thought I don't think I can do that anymore. I even told the woman that cut my hair, that I did not think I could do it anymore. She knew Casey had died and she told me also she did not think I could do it. Wonder why that is? Seems my life has turned upside down, and I don't feel like the same person. I want to work to help buy things for my grand daughter, and also to help pay bills. But I am scared.
I am just started a business, I am going to sell Cookie Lee Jewelry an now I am wondering can I do that, can I face people?

Here's my little chunky pumpkin.

Filled out papers today

At the Rehab place. I have appointment with a counselor the 7th of this month. Those papers were a little confusing. I had to ask a few questions as to what something meant. I also had to fill out 2 papers giving my doctors permission to tell them about my disability. The only disability I have is Psoriasis. If that is a disability. I guess I will know when I go back the 7th.
I had to go up there today with gauze and tape on the back of my hand, my hand had broke out, and sometime last night in my sleep I scratched it. It woke me up hurting. I put my cream on it and a white glove and went back to sleep.
If you have ever had poison oak or Ivy that is what it reminds me of. I would get that stuff as a kid and I will never forget how it was. Sometime now I will use OTC medicine for poison ivy. It stops the itch.

I'm back online

I switched phone companies and when I did that, it knocked my internet out. I had to call them last thursday to get it back on and they claim they could not get to it until today. I had to get another line for my DSL, butttttt he used the line I had the phone hooked to. So now I have a cord running from the box outside to my phone. I think that man was thinking the phone company I switched to uses the internet, because he was talking about voice over something. I spent all afternoon trying to get things straight.
My neighbor said she did the same thing last year and they messed hers up to she had to call them back out to her house. I only have 2 phone jacks in the house, so one of them is going to have to be used for internet and the other one needs to be used as the phone. I was all confussed and still am. I can't keep that cord running from the outside in through the back door. What a mess.

O Me

Now my telephone has been cut off, and I don't think I will have the money to get it back on for a while. I have signed up with dpi for phone service. It's a lot cheaper than my phone company. But they will not have it turned on for at least 7 days. Wonder how I am suppose to get calls about a job with no phone?

I put in a application online at a place the Employment Security Commission gave me. I did that last thursday. The man at the Employment place said to give it a couple of days and then call them to see if they got the application. Well I called them yesterday and the woman that I was suppose to talk to, I did not get to talk to, it went to her voice mail. I called 2 times yesterday and she did not call me back. So I went to Mama's to call her again today, I still did not get to speak to her, it went to the voice mail. This time I left my Mom's phone number.
The Employment place gave me the name of a Vocatioal Rehabilitation place they assess you and train you for a job. The woman I talk to said they train handicap people. She wanted to know what my handicap was, I told her I have psoriasis and I use to be a hair stylist, but I can't do it anymore because of my psoriasis. It makes me itch and so does hair. And I told her I can not work around chemicals. She accepted me, I have a appointment on April 1st. I'm suppose to bring my doctors name and address, and some other things, can't remember what, but she said I will get a letter in the mail. I sure hope they can help me. I had told the man at the Employment office that I had went through there dislocated workers program about 18 years ago for cosmetology. They must not have that any more because he wanted me to call the Vocational place. He said they train you. I had told him I was going to take medical transcription at the Community Collage but it cost to much money. And I could not get help with the payment because what I wanted to take was a certificate program. O me maybe one day soon I will have a job.